First of all, I wanna thank you for having the time for reading this.
1. The Intro
I’ve been chubby all my life. When I was little I used to eat and eat and eat all day nonstop. I guess we all kind of did that at that age, since we didn’t really care about how we looked. I’ve always been the “fat” one. In my group of friends, my family, my classroom…EVERYWHERE. Then I grew up. And I started to care about how I looked. There I realized I was really fat. I always hated that I could never buy the clothes I wanted ‘cause they wouldn’t fit or they wouldn’t look okay. I hated that I looked ugly most of the time. I hated the fact that I never looked good in pictures. I hated that I couldn’t wear shorts or a short skirt/dress and look good. I hated my double-chin. I hated my belly, my thigs, my arms…and I still do.
02. The things that make you change.
Little fact about me: I’m into rock/metal/hardcore music. (I like almost every kind of music, but those are the ones I listen the most). Almost two years ago I started playing the guitar and I met this girl, let’s call her…Scarlett. Scarlett was perfect. She had nice hair, a pretty face, a hot body and she was a guitar goddess. Let’s put it simple, she was EVERYTHING I wanted to be. Things happened and we ended up making a band. And more things happened and now I’m in another one where I’m the singer. I’m the only girl there. I feel like at least, I should look pretty, like all those female singers. I think we’d be more successful…I think that’s how it should be…and that’s where I finally tried to do a change, that’s why I tried doing this. So… I started trying to lose weight…and I failed.
03. The Tumblr weight-loss comunity era
And there I was. Fat and unsuccessful, and the worst part was that I was the only one to blame. I find really difficult not to binge…I need more self-control. One day I was on Tumblr as usual and I saw someone saying something about all “those stupid weight loss blogs on here”. I was shocked, I didn’t know they even existed, so I started looking for some of ‘em, I knew that they would help me, I knew that they felt the same way as I did (or at least something close to it) and I wasn’t wrong. I started to follow a bunch of ‘em and I finally got inspired. The “challenge” kind of started on November 20th, when I decided what I was going to do. Since that day I started by eating less, no, I didn’t starve, I ate the same I was used to but in little portions and since I was on holidays and I woke up real late, I didn’t have breakfast on all those days. (AND YOU CAN NOT COUNT THAT AS SKIPPING MEALS ‘CAUSE IF I ATE BREAKFASST I’D EAT LUNCH LIKE AN HOUR LATER AND IT WOULD BE STUPID) So, on January 4th I started excersicing :) Not gonna lie I’ve always HATED EXCERCISE. But now I’ve realized that it isn’t bad…it isn’t bad AT ALL. Excercise is your FRIEND. It makes you HEALTHY, it gets you NEAR YOUR GOAL. Does all that food helps you in reaching your goal? (If your goal is losing weight, obviously) the answer is NO. Also, when you excercise you start to feel good about it. If you’re like me, it’ll make you feel successful. Whenever I excercise I feel like I’m doing something great, that I’m nearer (?) to what I want to look, to be, to FEEL. I get motivated by that simple thing. Now I actually get EXCITED about excersicing ! I cannot believe it ! I may have a very short time doing this, but if you want something, you need to work hard for it, don’t you?
04. Thinspiration
1.)Thin + Inspiration.
a.)A person’s thinspiration is usually an Image or Photograph, but can be many other things like: Lyrics, Poems, Quotes, Sayings, etc..
b.)An inspiration to stay thin. Some people say girls use that because they want to be bulimic or anorexic, I say fuck that shit.
For me, thinspiration is what I wrote before, just something that inspires you to keep going, to not desist, that tells you “Hey! Don’t give up, remember what was your goal!”
A quote that keeps me going on this is
“When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place” -Jared Leto
That keeps me going EVERYTIME, EVERYWHERE, about ANYTHING :) (I feel like I repeat a shitload of words haha, sorry)
I want to look like those pretty girls…those cute, funny, perfect girls that every rockstar likes. My “thinspiration” girls may not be the same as you, may not be the same as anybody, but it doesn’t matter. It helps me. My biggest thinspirations are the following:
*Taylor Momsen
*Adriana Lima
*Lexus Amanda
*Amanda Hendrick
*Emma Watson
*Miranda Kerr
*Kate Moss
*Snejana
The guy that will keep me going through this: JAMES OWEN SULLIVAN a.k.a THE REV (from Avenged Sevenfold) I’m doing this for me, I’m doing this for you. I LOVE YOU <3
Thank you for reading this, if you’re like me, don’t be afraid and jump in this wild ride. I promise you this won’t be easy. BUT IT WILL BE WORTH IN THE END, and we’ll always have each other for support :)
Don’t live WISHING you were skinny, do something and GET skinny ! :)
